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I have a new purpose/mission/goal statement!

Or at least, it's whatever that sentence is that you put on your bedroom mirror so you can squint at when you're trying to verify if you look fashionable or completely ridiculous in those high heeled oxfords. (Currently leaning toward ridiculous.)

I haven't been writing much this week, but I'm being patient, even with my lack of energy to process. Maybe I've just hit a saturation point for a moment. I am full and I need to rest in what I've gathered these past months without endlessly charging ahead. Because that's what I do when I try to fix myself - I keep tunneling forward, looking for something new.

But where, exactly am I trying to get to that I don't have right now?

I'm not living in the illusion that my problems will be fixed or I'll attain anything that will never be tested or constantly relearned.

So I am at peace with writing as it comes, as I learn, and waiting in the not writing. Engaged, but not frantic. Learning, but not afraid that if I stop writing I'll stop growing. Growth, as it turns out, whether in plants or in people, must come from Love. The Love of the earth and sun and air in giving nutrients, or the Love of an unsurpassable sacrifice giving peace to me.

This is my statement, pieced together from a bit of Repenting of Religion (which "sounds emergent!" I know, but is breaking my heart to be open to God's Love in entirely fresh ways)

I derive my worth
from God alone

and I Love
without judgment
and
without conditions
on the basis of the
unsurpassable
fullness of life abundant

which I receive
from God
alone.